....MP...

another senior is leaving us.....earm.....actually she just pindah keluar lar....den ah wen say wanna go out....so....ah wen,hui seet,jia yuh and senior.....earm...imma lik tour guide....I bring them to tis restaurant....MP..in greentown d....

kay....now let d picca tell d stories...

nice????

DRINKS.....

FOOD....


my drink.....purple rain tea mix

being ss again while waiting for my mum mum to come...



hui seet jia yuh ah wen

den...

finally....

my mum mum...hawaiin chicken...

den.....

we share d cake....5 spoon for 5 ppl...haha...

lemon cheese cake...




ah wen shy shy...


after all i hav x to do....tis is using sec camera d....




me and senior...


me....hui seet(she really looks lik xiao mei mei lor....tis is wat thy cal her lar...)den rv suddenly muncul...haha....



AND......
BEFORE we went bac......
of cz GroUP Photo.....


nice???? I love d lightings....
HEART IT....

den after tat when we wanna go bac.....we cun even cal any teksi.....
and somethg even more sweat....
thy dun even noe where's greentown.....adoi....
but den....at d end we got bac lar...x worries....

act,imma x fully recovered d...but den who cares...haha...
is okay d lar...as long as i rest....
oops...REST????i tik i gotta stop now....time to bed...
tata....

考试期间...(kinda late post...)

原本是在考试那段期间里写的，写完了没放上来...现在才放...

考试期间的我,生病了...

DAY　１

没你在身边，生病了，真的很辛苦...加上又考试...

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从library回来，始终读不了书．．．

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从来没好过．．．病还是连续．．．

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－我的眼睛睁不开了
－我的食物

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没有你．．．．
我真的不行．．．

exam ends....and how she go though it....

paper 是考完了，大家都说MERDEKA了...但我一点都不觉得...一点也不期待假期的到来...没有你的假期还算得了什么？？？这SEM BREAK对我来说一点都不期待...我不喜欢...很痛苦...加上这次的考试，说老实话，我没读到...会fail吗？？？我七月需要resit吗？？？（tochwood...)我不想，但是我真的没读到书...觉得自己很矛盾，真的真的好像放弃，但又怕不及格...好没用...但我可以说的是，SEM 2 就这样的过了，还有11个SEM...我能吗？？？没有你的日子真的好痛苦...区区的半个SEM，我都不能了...真的很辛苦...DEAR，回来好吗？？？我真的不能没有你...对不起...

这几天，眼睛都被我哭得红红肿肿的...比金鱼的眼睛还要肿...原本的眼睛都已经不是很大粒的，再肿下去，简直就剩下一条线...但我真的真的很想哭，我再也控制不了...泪水就这样，一直往下流...哭包回来了...哭包很勉强的是自己快乐起来，但她失败了...哭包带着那笑脸的面具很辛苦...因为这不是她...她尽量做回自己，在另一头的当儿快乐起来...但她做不到...哭包有一个family了，她的妈妈——okelly phang, 哭包的爸爸——ven feng,但他说我不是他的，因为我很白渥，他说我是妈妈跟小白脸的...='(...哭包的uncle——chiong hung,也就是妈妈的小白脸...然后还有alice她们,就是prasekolah那班华人...这个family给我带来了不少的欢乐，谢谢你们...

然后，阿姐...对不起...我知道你一直都很关心我，一直都劝我放...我也知道有好几次都让你好失望...对不起...你都知道我是很固执的，依我性格，我认定的人，或事物...我是不会放弃的...就算后果是不值得，我会更累，更伤，更痛苦，我还是不会放弃....对不起...还有，我开始不会说出任何的事情了...看了这你就会明白...对不起...《她》

（abt u follow me,jus wanna tell it's okay now....cz x one wil see my blog ady.....especially him...SAD huh???ya....it's really sad and hurt....)

can anyone make me smile???can anyone teach me how can I save it?????
dear....can u see tis????my life is really miserable w/o u.....im x lying....it's true.....
sorry....i really din mean it n i noe sorry wun turn bac time...
but i really hope u und...and giv me another chance....
hope u enjoy ur holidays,n im glad to noe tat ur bac to ur hometown safely...

AND IM HERE TO WISH EVERYONE......HAPPY HOLIDAY......
ENJOY URSELF DURING HOLIDAY.....BUT DO OWEZ RMB....SAFETY 1ST.....
TATA....

I DUN WANNA STUDY...

CAN I GIV UP????

IMMA REALLY STRESS....

I DUN WANNA STUDY ANYMORE.....

ARGH.....

BUT DEN IM SCARED....

IM SCARED TAT IF I DUN STUDY....

I MIGHT X PASS MY EXAM...

IS D FINAL.....

IS X A JOKE.....

TIS EXAM IS IMPORTANT....

SILLY AMANDA.....

NOOB AMANDA.....

USELESS AMANDA.....

ISH..ISH..ISH...

STUPID KS...

STUPID PJ...

STUPID PC2.....

I HATE YOU.....

I REALLY DUN HAV D MOOD AT ALL....

NOT EVEN A LIT BIT OF THEM....

NOT IN D RIGHT TIME,RIGHT PLACE,RIGHT...

WATEVER.....

ARGH....

I JUST WANNA CRY.......

='(...

HOW I WISH UR HERE....

JUST RIGHT BSIDE ME....

HLPING ME WIF MY STUDIES....

DEAR, I NID YOU....

I REALLY DO NID YOU.....

WUUUUUUUUUU...........='(...

OH LORD......

PLEASE....

GUIDE ME....

LEAD ME....

IM SO STRESSED UP....

KINDA FEEDUP WIF THOS PAPERS....

THERE'S STIL 3 MORE TO GO.....

ARGH.....

IM SO LOST...

SO SAD....

SO MOODY...

IM TIRED WIF ALL THOS TREATMENTS TAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH....

AND ALL THOS MEDICINES TAT I HAVE....

VISIT d HOSP TWICE A MONTH....

ARGH....

IM GONNA BE CRAZY SOON....

VERY SOON.....

I CUN STAND IT.....

I CUN EXPRESS MYSELF....

I CUN BE D REAL ME ANY MORE...

D TELL D TRUTH.....

I CUN EVEN CONTINUE MY LIFE W/O HIM....

IM SUFFERING....

WEARING A FAKE MASK TO CLASS....

MAKING A FAKE SMILE WHENEVER I SEE PPL PASS BY...

O EVEN SOMETIMES, I DIN EVEN SMILE....

I CUN MAKE IT...

EVIONE IS LIKE....

OOH MY....SHE'S COOL...DUN EVEN GO NEAR HER...

ARGH....

FOCUSING MYSELF TO LAUGH, TO SMILE....

TELLING MYSELF,TRY TO ENJOY EVERYTHG....

BUT D REAL ME????

X ONE SEE IT..

X ONE NOES ABT IT....

MB I CAN GET D BEST ACTRESS AWARD....

HIDING MYSELF...MY TRUE FEELING FRM EVERYONE...

ACTING LIK IMMA OWEZ OKAY...BUT DEN D TRUTH IS...IMMA NOT...

EVERYONE IS GIVING UP ON ME....

THY SAY TAT AMANDA'S DEGIL.....

LET HER BE....

DUN BOTHER....

SORRY....IMMA DEGIL....

I ADMIT IT...

AND I NOE IMMA STUPID...

BUT DEN....HE'S D ONE I LOVE...

HE'S D ONE I GAVE EVRYTHG...

I TRY MY BEST TO BE D BEST WHENEVER IM INFRONT OF HIM....

I DIN PLAY NOR FOOL AROUND...

IM OWEZ SERIOUS....

THER'S X ONE PERFECT IN TIS WORLD..

X EVEN GOD.....SOMEHOW GOD MADE MISTAKES TO....

EVERYONE HAV THEIR OWN PRO AND CON...

AND D MOST IMPORTANT THG IS TAT WHENEVER U MADE TAT MISTAKES,REALIZED IT AND CHANGED IT.....DUN EVER DO IT AGN...

I CHANGED....

AND I JUST USED A LONGER TIME TO DO SO....

BUT DEN X EVEN A SINGLE TINNY LITTLE CHANCE IS GIVEN...

KAY....TATS ENUF....
SHE HAS BIG RED GOLDFISH EYES....N RED RUDOLF NOSE NOW...
AND ONCE AGAIN....SHE GOTTA GO BAC TO D REALITY LIFE...
AND STARTS TO ACT...

20th of May....

hmmmmm.....20th of MAy had passed....and of cz again.....I blogged.....2day......(err...i mean yesterday lar.....)...kinda tired,gotta make it short n simple...

❤i wanna say 520 to you....altot u wun see nor hear it.....

❤den study & sick....

❤den mama's birthday...

-bought a dress for her,but end up,she dun lik it....sad...
-den bought a cake,x really tat nice....
-den cooked some dishes,x tat tasty neither....
I feel lik imma loser...argh....

❤den girl's talk wif theng2 and bei2

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RyaN Liew.....Sorry...
I LOVe you....I really do....

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another antibiotic......adui.....

thy accompany me when imma study.....Froggie.....cute ya????
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white choco cheese cake

dishes i made....

mama cutting d cake...

me and mummy...

d dress i bought for mama,i was trying S size lar of cz....but den in d end....sad resits....den my purse was all dried up.....hmmm.....

BTW......MUMMY.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY......
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girls talk......

theng theng and man man ....

bei bei,theng theng and man man(as wat thy cal me...)
err....u can juz ignore my big face...

thx girls.....thx for spending ur time wif me....just to listen to me.....
as thy noe how bad and sad Im...
and sorry dear.....i really din mean it.....

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