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Monday, April 30, 2012


检查过了,报告也出了,证明了真的有淤血,医生是说不会影响到什么,可是我老是觉得他怕我担心而有些事隐瞒我(医院里的都知道本小姐的性格XD)。
这几天,头还是会晕,会痛~讨厌~
那天星期五,上完课后就匆匆忙忙的去医院,那时还穿着formal长裙在哪里走来走去,说真的还蛮奇怪又好笑的~在等待的当儿,我跑去找我的干妈(Dr Vivian)从小看着我长大的,从小就是她医我的,我的生死也是她陪我度过,我的二号妈咪~然后也被她狠狠的训了一顿,以为本小姐没有跟着时间吃药XD,也停了好一段时间,干妈还被我的原因气死XD(吃了药,很弱,里头的chemical弄到我的肤质坏料,不美料=P)然后干妈当天有空,就提早帮我做检查(本来是6号appointment 的)然后又中骂咯,因为自己的错而使到病情恶化,然后得进行chemotheraphy~五月得乖乖去做~哭惨~TnT~~还有,本小姐没得参加任何的camp or event料~这真的是惨上加惨~~wea~~喜欢跑camp,跑event的,到最后没得跑了~~全部都被banned了~~心情真的是跌到谷底,然后也没胃口吃东西~~不过,还好晚上, movie time,心情好点了~个田野去跳舞。其实,跳舞也是得stop,可是那是我唯一的发泄方法咧~~没了它,我该怎么办???
检查的当时,都是MRI,哇~~我都不知道死了多少的细胞,可悲~~
所以这几天出去,父母都比较担心,就比如说星期五那天,我去看半夜场回来时,已经3点多了,他们还在等我,还有星期六晚上也是, as thy need to make sure that Im stil okay,因为原本血糖低的我就该时时刻刻得小心了,再加上跌倒而造成的淤血,妈咪更加的担心~不过,妈咪,这几天我都没事,不要担心噢~

这几天,我回到了“自闭”阶段了~只允许音乐的陪伴,时时刻刻戴着耳机,连晚上睡觉也是带着~不怎么想与他人说话~我们美丽的睿雯还问我最近是不是走cool cool的路线~哈哈~每天带着耳机,穿着冷衣~

看来你看到我是很辛苦,那好吧,我会消失在你眼前,我不想你那么痛苦~看到你这样,我会心痛~


啊,整个星期都要补课~我要死掉料拉~
要补的课是被排地满满的~我真的真的很,非常的累~我的头奖又提早送到,现在肚子很不舒服啦~很想哭啦~讨厌~


Thursday, April 26, 2012


Today i din go class as I fell down from the staircase....oh well,i was feeling dizzy but yet i din care as i was gonna be late for class......so,when i was abt to go down,i accidentally step on the wrong step n ooppss,i tripped n fell.....i went blank off n luckily i was able to wake up....
den they suggest me to go for a doc,but at the end,i juz prefer to rest at my room....
den,there's a taklimat peperiksaan at 2pm in dewan,so we went for it...n of cz it's nonsense agn....we were waiting for the slip n to sign.....haiz....this sem's slip peperiksaan was so so so so damn ugly....uuuuuueeekkk~~~

kay,ntg else....juz somethg to update myself.....
n ya.....tml there's replacement classes...DISLIKE....TnT

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

It's getting deep down inside~~


“恋爱就是这个样子,有开心就有痛苦,要是你觉得受伤,是可以躲起来的;
可是我觉得阿,与其躲起来当睡美人,还不如好好振作一下重新出发,
接受下一段恋爱不是很好吗?”


这一段话,是以前本小姐,我,常常拿来鼓励他人的。
但现在自己用不上场了,真的好没用。
自己一直在当睡美人,躲起来。
病了连续好几天好不起来,课没去上,东西没吃,根本就没胃口。
不知道会不会影响到我的credit hour不足,等下不能考试,怎么办???


这几天都是一直在EMO。
一直都在post EMO 的status。AH Puuuu~
haiz,不过有时还真的会这么想,哪就是就算再痛,也得装没事。阿不然就是好想失意~
ooh ya,I can hold back my tears and hide them with a smile but I can't hide that hole in my heart.
为何每当又遇到这样的问题时,都是考试来临的时刻???
为什么自己一直说要好起来,最后还是跌到了???
我,不可以这样下去,我不可以再逃避你,不可以再逃避事实,我得勇于面对你,面对一切。
我得坚强起来,痛是会痛,泪还是会流,给点时间我,我会好起来,
让你知道,这一切不是你的错,
哪你自己也要好好加油,照顾好自己,不要轻易放弃,as God will always be with you, 还有忘掉过去吧,相信自己,你是可以的。我们一起加油好不好?
加油!!!

Ooh Well, I think i will end this post with a prayer.

Heavenly Father, You know the power of love and how awesome a gift it is. You are the source of all love and goodness. You have created us to love and be loved and you have given us our family, friends and loved ones to experience this love. I come to you now humbly asking for healing as I love Raymond and I have lost him, I hurt. Please be with me as I grieve the loss of him in my life. Comfort me when places, peoples, food and activities remind me of him. Guide me into a future where You continue to prosper and guard me. Strengthen me when I'm having a bad day, and let me know You love me when I feel alone and lost. Walk with me, day by day, and remind me that I'm never alone in You.
Father, you know all things, you can do all things and you love me as you also love Raymond. Touch our heart with your power that can heal all the pains in us as for Raymond, he is still struggling with the pass. Let each of us see things from your point of view and through your eyes of love. Let joy rest in our hearts once again. I pray this in Jesus' name, amen."

Monday, April 23, 2012

Wah, 我还真的是第一次完全没有读书的去考试咧~ 人生中第一次,原本完美主义(almost ba, mua fren say de)的我,每做一件事都会全力以浦;无论它是大事还是小事,都会尽力的,可是这次
我是
完 . 全 . 没 . 读 . 书~

昨晚回到来,感冒了(刚发烧好,又感冒,感冒好又发烧,现在又来感冒,才不久的事,看来我的immune system越来越差了);收拾完后就打开电脑要准备明天的呈堂报告,然后就读书准备明天的UAK,怎懂开了电脑,打开了书,整个人就在哪里发呆~不知道在做什么!!!

最近一直跟着这个歪理,那就是一直在把自己搞得很packed,很busy,den 到晚上看到床就会自然累倒倒下去睡觉,不让自己有时间去想其他事~虽然自己昨晚真的很累,但就是不敢睡~不,应该是说这几天都不敢去睡~ 昨晚就是发生了自己怕的事,okay, I dreamt abt you for the whole night, I know Im idiot, but I cnt control it~ hmmm, act I mean these few nights, you keep appearing in my dreams~n IMMA SUFFERING~ 生病就已经很辛苦了,还要加上整晚没有睡~TnT~所以早上prepared for school的时候真的很讨厌,还考UAK,哈哈~去到班上课才知道自己没带pencil case,没带umbrella,没带purse出来~den 忘记吃medicine, 已经有3 days没吃了~(不按时吃药的坏习惯还是改不了,就算有做 therapies or operation,没按时吃药就是前功尽弃啦~STUPID )上华文课还真的不简单,讲师, sorry that I slept during ur class。Pengurusan Gerko的 UAK真的让我死惨惨~没有读书哦,所以是一题都不会做啦, my goodness~

 对了,上面讲了,不是讲我刚回来的,>,<,我刚从KL回来,迟点有空,整理photos,den I will post abt that trip~《疗伤之旅》哈哈~这个旅行,自己还真的很够力下的,整整花了六百多以上,只是三天两夜哦,shop到要刷卡(因为钱包没钱了),还真的是人生中的第一次~每次的shop til i drop,“最后”真实用上场了~接下来得吃自己了~呵呵~虽然钱包是很痛,痛地流血、流泪,但这一点都比不上心里的那个痛~(sometimes i bcam shopaholic to release the pain,the pressure which is NOT really a good idea)


WEYH, 
AMANDA CHEAH, 
CAN YOU GET A GRIP ON YOURSELF?
exam is coming soon
(why everythime thgs happened during my exam period??? izit a test from God??? n sorry to say, I cnt really stand any longer)
n u cnt be like that forever,right???
that wil affect ur exam,kay???
COME ON~~
(how i wish i had an accident n lost all my memories, n the best is to disappear from this world,I think I need M.I.A badly)



kay,
 Im juz here to blah n blah,
to express myself through words
(cz dance cz Sick, bt imma gonna teach my kiddos ballet tis coming saturday,whee)
 n I hav X appetite at ALL~
all I need is juz to sleep~
Night WORLD~
tadah~present to you,my dark eyes circles,n red nose look(pic cnt really see lar)~

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Happy Birthday, Daddy~~



Daddy,sorry that I spoilt the day,that i spoilt the celebration~~
Im x a good girl,sorry~~n I hope you love the present i made~
Happy Birthday~~


Monday, April 16, 2012

我没事~


说真的~
原本的我,就是比较喜欢以文字、画画、舞蹈、音乐来抒发感情,心情~
时不时是会找他人讲下心事~



那感觉又来了~
有是到了那不出声的时候了~
到了向自己一个人静下来的时刻~
到了喜欢一个人躲在一个角落的时候~


但最近的我变得非常,怎么说???
是内向吗???
就是不爱讲话~~
还是非常非常的喜欢以舞蹈来抒发最近的心情~
每次都是这样的~
接近考试时期的时候就会这样~
不怎么认识我的朋友,都会以为我又在EMO了~~
朋友们,别担心,我不是EMO,只是我最近喜欢以舞蹈、文字抒发以表达出我的心情~




Sunday, April 15, 2012

Arhhhhhh~~~Grrrrhhhh

TML UAK LIAO~~
2 PAPERS LEH~~

ELP~~
TITAS~~

OOH LORD,I JUZ NEED A PASS~~

THAT IS,NTG ELSE~~

That is Why I love Pooh~



PIGLET:
"how do you spell LoVe?"
POOH:
"you don't spell it,YoU feel it."


and that is why I love You,POOH~~

~~^^~~


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Disaster coming soon~~

I had been rushing and rushing all the way for these few weeks~~
busy wif the Mirco Teaching,Jamuan Thg~


Tadah,done wif my micro teaching~
HUge envolope n letter~



tiger mask of other group~~



Other教具~


 I got one of it,n now it's at my mirror~




den~~
05042012
finally finish wif the Malam Seribu Kenangan Invitation Card for the lecturers~
(MAlam Seribu Kenangan was one of our Pengurusan Gerko Assignment)


I missed lotz of things last weeks as im on MC~~
so,for the Jamuan thg i was like abit Blur~~
but yet,we K6 did it,everythg went smoothly~

10042012
Tadah~~the day of Jamuan Akhir Semester, MALAM SERIBU KENANGAN~
Let the photo speaks~~


~~~PrepariNg~~~
 


Started off wif Nyayian,den lecturers giving speech~

Jamuan Time: Eat,Drink n DiGest~~LOL~~ 


Tadah~Suprise for the April Babies~~
 

d Tradition~~


Performance Time: Magic Show, Shou yu, n video~~ 



Den Photo Taking session:
K6 wif our Parents-Our Tutor and her hubby~

b4 we clear everythg up,hehe~~








Haha~I juz love My Bangs~~>,<


11042012
There's 8.6 earthquake for the 1st round, n 8.9 earthquake for the 2nd round in Aceh~
and Malaysia is slighty affected by it~
Heard that it's quite serious in Penang~
n I wish for the best for you,hope that ur okay~~

Our hostel was shaking too.....
I was not in,as I follow rommie n her classmates around Ipoh for the caves' Trip~
whenever I got the news, I was so worry that I phoned home, but indeed I got scolding from brother @@~
and I heard that Penang is quite serious,i wanna phoned U,but i cnt even contact u AT ALL~
and for YOU, Imma quite worry too.....as ur in the boat above the sea area when this kinda thgs happened~but thank God that ur safe at the end,n for U,may God Bless you that u will owez be safe~

Heard the ominous roll of thunder and realized that another storm is coming.That means another sleepless night for me~~TnT~~


PRAY FOR Aceh and EVERYONE THAT I LOVE~

Saturday, April 7, 2012



God I pray for motivation.
Motivation to live righteously and not be deceived.
For you have not called us for impurity, but in holiness.
Even as You chose us before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before you in love.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Malam Kebudayaan~

Majlis Pelancaran 
KELAB KEBUDAYAAN & KESENIAN

Malam Kebudayaan
30/03/2012

It was a night where I dance my heart out,>,<~
Even though I did cry for some reason,but yet I stil love it~~
btw,wanna Thx MR photographer for the photos~Kamsahaminda~

Photographer:Johnson Ea



Dun feel like talking muc~~jz photos may do~~













DANCERS of the NIGHT~~



Wednesday, April 4, 2012

EAt n PLay~~


Haha~~went out for outing agn~~
hehe~~n of cz thx frenz for accompany me ya~~
I mean for the whole day~~

kay~~The 1st thg we do was went to sushi KIng~~
as It's having it's bonanza promotion~


Sushi king bonanza


and I accidentally knocked into Xinru~~
how I miss her~~
Xinru wif her frenz~~


Tadah~~we ended up having that much~~5 girls for that Much~~hehe
ooh ya....met some IPG frenz too~~



*Xinru,all the best, take care and stay happy owez for ur studies in Penang~
n May God Bless You owez~~


hmmmmm,den we went to Kbox~
Sing K Session~


after that we went Pasar malam as It's a tuesday night~
Act it was raining n I lost my umbrella in campus,so I din hav an umbrella~~
but somehow I enjoy the rain...>,<
 den the last station--> TESCO~~

den bac to campus.....
(I got sicked the day after @@)





TAT'S ALL FOR ONE WHOLE DAY~~
ENJOYING MYSELF....^^
 
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