最近健康有往下跌了，当然究竟这种东西不能再碰了，时时刻刻想睡觉，就这样一直睡睡醒醒的，讨厌！！！我该怎么读书啊，考试了啦~~~="(



今天睡着睡着就梦见你们了，此刻的我，心非常的疼，不是说放下了吗？？？？为什么还是会疼呢？？？就这样心疼，哭了起来~~哭着哭着就哭醒了~~bubu~~="(
看来我是太想念你了，向我们复合回~~="(....不然为什么会这样？？？？！！！






这个月可要忙死了；这星期3张UAK。说到UAK，今天考了1张，ELP，明天还有两张，明天的两张才惨，都不知道要怎么读，haiz~~等下还有跆拳道练习（1,3,5 都练习），晚上band？？？？（我应该不去）考完UAk,就concert 了~星期日晚上，跆拳道的gathering a.k.a farewell~下个星期就grading 了，很怕，很怕自己不能过关~~hiaz.....den,下个星期三G组学兄学姐的欢送会~~圣母的band练习我应该不能去了，等考完试吧~~
十月底考试了！！！啊！！！怕怕！！！

Abnormal act~~

okie~~

meet the abnormal AMANDA~~

once agn,it's exam season~~

n my bad habit is here again~~

drinking HOT water to make myself awake~~

to make myself concentrate~~

tummy aches~~vomiting~~ah PUUU~~

oh Lord,dun let me fall before exam~~

n let me pass through every paper~~
Amanda,dun fall~~~after 23rd,d last paper,den oly u pengsan ar~~

hmmmm~~~4 papers which will be quite hard~~
FPK,PKK,BCN 1,BCN 2~~

especially the chinese papers,so gonna cry for it~~

hmmmmm~~~gonna cont wif my studies~~

So,see u guys at the end of May~~

n imma gonna miss u readers,bloggers~~

Arhhhhhh~~~Grrrrhhhh

TML UAK LIAO~~

2 PAPERS LEH~~

ELP~~

TITAS~~

OOH LORD,I JUZ NEED A PASS~~

THAT IS,NTG ELSE~~

There goes exam~2

2 DOWN~ n 2 more to go~  =.=
kay~imma just here to relax~release my stress~~~
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ERYHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~(kay,u may ignore it~)

14th~
wake up at 9 somethg in d morning~
OH GOSH!!!i forgot to text Angeline n wish her good luck for her SPM...
but den i stil send n in d text i mean tat imma sorry n hope tat it was not too late~~haha

den in d evening,had some talk wif my roomie abt somethg lik "BLOODY MARY" =.=....she share it through a novel she read~~(kinda lik scary as it's a cold weather)
gotta get food frm cafeteria (i dun wanna get gastric) so i follow roomie n her fren down to cafeteria,n we waited for half an hour just for nasi goreng,bihun goreng,n nasi putih + telur dadar.....

received text frm angeline:
Durh, just bac frm school.wanna know my review abt today's paper?It sucks!
poor thing~nvm lar dear~jie jie over here oso same same lorr~forget abt tat paper n be prepared for d next paper lor(but den i usually cnt make it,as i wil be blamming myself non stop for doing so bad in tat previous paper~tats me~)

bac to room n do d last revision~
lights off~bed time~ (but den unfortunately tummy hurts,cnt slip well)
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15th~
waked at 7pm~get prepared for exam~
cold morning,so i grab my jacket n off to exam hall~my tummy still hurts...=(
got d exam Ques paper~
d worst thg was my brain cnt function at all~T.T~ it went blank~HELP~
tats d SS paper~~ARGH~~~~WUUUUU~~~not tat d paper hard,it's my own problem~~~
STUPID AMANDA~

bac to room~~in a such dilemma situation~~or perhaps weird feeling situation~~
using my super duper high pitch to sing,washing clothes n sweeping floor which i wun even do them for a thousand year in hostel~~carring d notes n try to study n memories,n yet not a single word/notes enter n remains in my mind~~~OH GOSH~~~tml wil be PJK n thursday wil PC 2~~~n i hvt even touch PC AT ALL~congrat~HAHA~~~argghhhhhhh~~~d TESLian finished their papers, how envy~~~


*pray*
*just let me pass*

p/s:today's someone's birthday!!! I wanna wish her but den i dare not to~as i dunno how to,she's x in my fb's friend list anymore~~i din mean bad~
I just wanna wish u:
Girl,happy birthday~O-tanjobi omedeto~Saeng-il chu-ka ha-min-da
stay pretty n charming lik u owez do~GBU

There goes exam~1

today's paper was like omg~OH MY GOSH~~~~~
PC13311 P4 killed me~
ARGH........
15 minutes left for essay part B~ super incredible huh.....
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.............



I just wish for pass~


n sickness pls stay away~~~ far far away from me~~TQ.....



1 down,3 more to go.....
3 MORE TO GO~

考试期间...(kinda late post...)

原本是在考试那段期间里写的，写完了没放上来...现在才放...

考试期间的我,生病了...

DAY　１

没你在身边，生病了，真的很辛苦...加上又考试...

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从library回来，始终读不了书．．．

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从来没好过．．．病还是连续．．．

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－我的眼睛睁不开了
－我的食物

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没有你．．．．
我真的不行．．．

20th of May....

hmmmmm.....20th of MAy had passed....and of cz again.....I blogged.....2day......(err...i mean yesterday lar.....)...kinda tired,gotta make it short n simple...

❤i wanna say 520 to you....altot u wun see nor hear it.....

❤den study & sick....

❤den mama's birthday...

-bought a dress for her,but end up,she dun lik it....sad...
-den bought a cake,x really tat nice....
-den cooked some dishes,x tat tasty neither....
I feel lik imma loser...argh....

❤den girl's talk wif theng2 and bei2

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RyaN Liew.....Sorry...
I LOVe you....I really do....

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another antibiotic......adui.....

thy accompany me when imma study.....Froggie.....cute ya????
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white choco cheese cake

dishes i made....

mama cutting d cake...

me and mummy...

d dress i bought for mama,i was trying S size lar of cz....but den in d end....sad resits....den my purse was all dried up.....hmmm.....

BTW......MUMMY.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY......
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girls talk......

theng theng and man man ....

bei bei,theng theng and man man(as wat thy cal me...)
err....u can juz ignore my big face...

thx girls.....thx for spending ur time wif me....just to listen to me.....
as thy noe how bad and sad Im...
and sorry dear.....i really din mean it.....

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exam fever....

argh......D virus of exam fever in me is on.......argh........nightmare.........suffer.....it was even worse den last semester....Last sem.....every of this wil only happen when it was during d exam....I mean it wil only starts when i sit for d paper...but now........i hvt start any of d paper.....but den d virus is in me....Argh.....

how am I going to study?????how Am I going to sit for d exam?????i really cun stand it....oh Lord.....Wat shld I do??????keep on having tis terrble headache and vomitting izit a good way...tis sem we gonna hav d blok cempaka, d top floor as our exam hall.....and there wil be 4 to 5 classes in it.....and it is scary...really scary....just like last time SPM.......and i dun wanna it to happen any more.....arrrrrrrrrrr..............help...........

tis is wat we call It LIFE....

"look forward in your life,you didnt spoil anything,just don't spoil yourself,love your life and live it"
-someone told me tis....
LOok forward......（can I?????）
I din spoilt anythg......(NO......I DID......我破坏了自己的幸福。。。我自己毁掉了。。。）
LOVE My life....live it??????(can i?????....)

SERIOUSLY....I cun.......I really cun......sorry to say so......all i can is to wait......went to tis 组长培训营。。。den i saw tis......somehow from a teenager.....我不会表达我自己，所以我不知道如何把自己所要的说出来，我总是选择了沉默，保持沉默，不让就总是表达地不清不楚。。。我就是这样，希望你能多了解，多关怀我。。。somehow it is all my 心声。。。I really duno how to 表达myself....
hmmmm.....tats too much i wanna ask.....too much i wanna tell....i wanna ask "HOw are you recently????"......but den i cun....and d only thg is just tat i prefer to keep quiet....tis is how stupid im.....tis is how i spoilt everthg.....i spoilt my own 幸福，我毁了自己的幸福，我破坏了它。。。

seriously,i nid someone to understands and believe in me......I really do nid it badly.....but den.....can i???????x one else believe me.....x one else understnads me......I REALLY DIN MEAN IT........I REALLY DIN MEAN TO DO IT.......do u noe tat....imma hurting u by hurting myself.....
is all by mistake......i din say tat im x wrong.....YA....im wrong.....and i regret and I knew it....and I changed......did u ever seen someone when he or she did wrongly,and she tried to save it,changed it in every single way???????NO right....normally.....tat person wil let it pass by......and see....Tis girl did evrythg.....she changed, she regreted, she save it in every single way she can ever find....cun u guys see it???????she is serious in tis relationship and she din fool in it...but just y????X one ever believe nor understnads her....

and....the another thg......d amount of my friend is getting smaller.....you BLOCK me....he UNFRIEND me.....she delete me from d list......hey.....do u know tat tat hurts...kay...it really does...somehow we are once to be known as friends,kay.......FReakly speaking......Imma really sad.....sorry....

it is exam time now......amanda.....let's put all this aside......study....i noe it is hard,but just try ur best...kay?????And remember....owez...pray to God.......God wil lead and guide you.....cz Jesus owez love you......(countdown to 5 more days....d 1st paper....and i stil have alot of them....I CUN FINISH THEM>>>.....ARGH....)

after exam....it is holiday....everyone is happy....cz thy can meet wif their love one....and i cun....sorry to say so.....and mb after all thos camps.....imma go on an missing in action.....ya......wat will it be?????a vacation????? NO......den?????wat else u wanna do wif "MISSION IN ACTION" den??????.....hmmmmm......x a word.....just tat im risking my life to do this....and i wish b4 tat I can meet u once....but......i noe...it's impossible.....stupid me....ISHHHH.....

it is just an photo.....and i cun really remember went i took it......just kinda simple and mb is d last photo.....kay....just ignore her......EMO TIME.....