tis is wat we call It LIFE....

"look forward in your life,you didnt spoil anything,just don't spoil yourself,love your life and live it"
-someone told me tis....
LOok forward......（can I?????）
I din spoilt anythg......(NO......I DID......我破坏了自己的幸福。。。我自己毁掉了。。。）
LOVE My life....live it??????(can i?????....)

SERIOUSLY....I cun.......I really cun......sorry to say so......all i can is to wait......went to tis 组长培训营。。。den i saw tis......somehow from a teenager.....我不会表达我自己，所以我不知道如何把自己所要的说出来，我总是选择了沉默，保持沉默，不让就总是表达地不清不楚。。。我就是这样，希望你能多了解，多关怀我。。。somehow it is all my 心声。。。I really duno how to 表达myself....
hmmmm.....tats too much i wanna ask.....too much i wanna tell....i wanna ask "HOw are you recently????"......but den i cun....and d only thg is just tat i prefer to keep quiet....tis is how stupid im.....tis is how i spoilt everthg.....i spoilt my own 幸福，我毁了自己的幸福，我破坏了它。。。

seriously,i nid someone to understands and believe in me......I really do nid it badly.....but den.....can i???????x one else believe me.....x one else understnads me......I REALLY DIN MEAN IT........I REALLY DIN MEAN TO DO IT.......do u noe tat....imma hurting u by hurting myself.....
is all by mistake......i din say tat im x wrong.....YA....im wrong.....and i regret and I knew it....and I changed......did u ever seen someone when he or she did wrongly,and she tried to save it,changed it in every single way???????NO right....normally.....tat person wil let it pass by......and see....Tis girl did evrythg.....she changed, she regreted, she save it in every single way she can ever find....cun u guys see it???????she is serious in tis relationship and she din fool in it...but just y????X one ever believe nor understnads her....

and....the another thg......d amount of my friend is getting smaller.....you BLOCK me....he UNFRIEND me.....she delete me from d list......hey.....do u know tat tat hurts...kay...it really does...somehow we are once to be known as friends,kay.......FReakly speaking......Imma really sad.....sorry....

it is exam time now......amanda.....let's put all this aside......study....i noe it is hard,but just try ur best...kay?????And remember....owez...pray to God.......God wil lead and guide you.....cz Jesus owez love you......(countdown to 5 more days....d 1st paper....and i stil have alot of them....I CUN FINISH THEM>>>.....ARGH....)

after exam....it is holiday....everyone is happy....cz thy can meet wif their love one....and i cun....sorry to say so.....and mb after all thos camps.....imma go on an missing in action.....ya......wat will it be?????a vacation????? NO......den?????wat else u wanna do wif "MISSION IN ACTION" den??????.....hmmmmm......x a word.....just tat im risking my life to do this....and i wish b4 tat I can meet u once....but......i noe...it's impossible.....stupid me....ISHHHH.....

it is just an photo.....and i cun really remember went i took it......just kinda simple and mb is d last photo.....kay....just ignore her......EMO TIME.....