Perhaps....

Perhaps you shouldnt fall in love with me.... Perhaps I shouldnt start at all..... When I'm still emotional unstable, I just shouldnt start at all.... sorry for making you that stress and tired.... Well, for that FB PAGE ya, I just wanna try ang help and share it out....
never know that I turn out to be something you don't like at all..... perhaps I shouldnt share... perhaps I shouldnt try and help.... was it bcz of all these, you tend to avoid me?
what's the point of walking another path? did you know that its hurting ? Why did you wanna drag yourself further when you were just beside me???? I didnt go any closer... Knowing thing which I shouldnt know is something hurtful.... Im not sure why did you try and hide it from me....what's the reason of doing so???? you can just tell the truth that you didnt went for your navy training, and you follow your cousin to Balik PULAU..... you even told me that he ask you where to go, and he went almost half of penang..... Is it bcause I suggesred lots of things till you feel like you cnt handle everything...
I suggested to have our celebration at home and not in lumut is bcz I though you travelled alot, and I was so like I dont want you to waste petrol, money and travel again... perhaps you wanna travel as you love improtu trips, you loves road trips.....i should just let you plan.... silly me just like my silly old bear-POOH *well, I am actually suffering inside....Thats why I deleted my FACEBOOK APPS and MESSENGER from my phone.....
I cnt even stdn for any longer.... I hv to mute your IG post and stories just to allow myself for losing control..... I feel like im no longer that AMANDA you once know....THIS IS SO NOT MEEEEEEE......I cnt control myself and I have to do somethg to avoid this....

Sometimes when I miss you.

Sometimes when i miss you :( i re-read our old conversations and smile :) Do you know how it feels? to be left crying all alone. and do you know how it feels? to be left dying on that floor all alone. do you know? she gave up without trying on that love and now i'm just sitting, waiting on a message or a call for love. Just for love. It's for love Just for love..