"Imma having gastric again....help...really pain ar....argh...." She shouts...."Anyone????" " HElp????" "Please...." but she knows tat no one evr lend a hand.....
She owez do suffer from gastric.....
Everyone is busy wif their own staff.....who's so free to take care of her?????only her hubby will.....but now he too left her.....and she was all alone by herself....She was typically down and tired......she hvt finish her homework......TEnnis notes.....and she gotta hand up tml......she din practice her guitar and she forget all her chords......she just dun hav d energy to move around.....tml tat she stil have class as usual.....can she gets an MC....?????she wants too.....but she gotta attend classes as exam is coming and she cun miss her classes at all.....hmmmmm.....tml night mayb her last guitar lesson for this semester.....cz she and her fren thinks tat thy gotta stop and prepare for exam.....she was kinda stress now.....
her lastest weight was only 48kg.....but she was not happy at all......"wasn't tis ur ideal weight before CNY....45-49kg.....and now u get it......"' "but den.....there's somethg nt right....." "my weight drops suddenly....." all tis keeps gng round and round in her mind......and she knows tat something is not right.....somethgs might had been wrong......but she tell herself tat "you thinked too much....now focus on your studies...."as there;s too much thgs happened recently....and she cun focus on her stdies at alll.....tis is d only way.....forcing herself to study.....if not.......she gotta resit for exam...(touched wood)....after evithg tat happened.....she starts to act again....and again she was like last time once she used to be.....Acting tat she is alright while she is NOT AT ALL....she wanted to cry her heart out.....as loud as she could.....
but she cun.....she gotta start acting......she have to do tis....cz she gotta protect herself from d inner her.....as there;s x one else to protect her.....i mean mentally and physically....and is time for her to wear on d mask.....the SMILEY MASK......and mb 4ever wil she wears tat on......she have tis kinda thinking....tat she wanna go missing in action......where to.....she doesn't really know......wat she knws was she wanna leave evithg behind and go on a vacation all by her own....to some where tat x one noes where she wil be......she wanna find her heart,her soul,mentally,physically or watever tat belongs to her bac and go missing in no where....so tat she will be all alone......she was alone in evrythg.....saving herself from the outside world......
She cries silently......LOnely...in her very own corner....
which x one believe nor understands her.....she was like a broken angel with broken heart 
and broken wings 
....and tat angel forgets the feel of flying.....
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❤amanda❤
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