Whereever you are, you'll always be in my heart....

(but  i will never ever in yours anymore)

 

be UR own HERO

 

Sometimes u have to be Your own hero,

bcoz the people u CAN'T live without can live without you..!!

SO,

GIRL~

STAY STRONG!!!

ooh pls~

OKay~~

I dreamt about you these few days~~

Sweet dreams~~~

HOW I WISH THEY ARE REAL~~

HOW I WISH THE DREAMS TO COME TRUE~~

ooh LORD,PLs make them come true~~
 

I'm still waiting for you

U say you're leaving as u look away

I know there's really nothing left to say

Just know I'm here whenever U need me

I'll wait for U..!!!

21.02.2012

Heyh,dear~
it's ur birthday~

おたんじょび　おめでと～

생일축하합니다~

Joyeux anniversaire~

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag~

ifeliz cumpleanos~

happy birthday~

selamat hari lahir~

i cnt celebrate wif u anymore~

we are x longer together~x even frenz??!!

sorry for everythg bac in time~

hmmmm,wish you have an memorable 20th birthday wif ur frenz~

dreams to come true~

healthy,happy forever~

all d best in ur studies in Uni~

take care~

GBU~

I just miss you~

I used to learn n cooked this for u~~
its ur favourite~~

but now,its no longer needed~~

IMY~~

Trying hard for it

This few days, 

I was gng here n there,having trips,

making new frenz,meeting old frenz,go gathering,

working hard,joining church camp,so to make myself super duper tired.

There's a reason for everythg i do, as I was so so so busy + tired wif my stuft,

everythg was so so pack~

and I wnt even hav a single time to think of nonsense,all d negative thgs,

made myself full used of d time left,

n MOST OF ALL,i wnt hav d time to think of you, n made myself suffering all day long.

and one more,d time which is packed will pass faster~

n till tat day,tata~~

I know i shld forget abt u,

bt sorry to say tat, I CNT......I cnt 4get abt u....
I miss u day by day,even evry night,I dreamt abt u, oh LORD.....

there's lotz of question i wanna ask u~~

How r u???

how's final???

was everythg alright in U???

Hope the best for you....

Good luck n all d best for ur finals n future undertakings~

dun get over stress,juz believe tat u wil b alright,evrythg is gonna be okay,like u owez did~

ooh ya,pls dun do silly thgs jz to make urself staying awake n study~(praying really hard over here for u)

GAMBATEH  DES~~

*Imma trying vry hard to be brave n stay strong~but thy r really difficult to me,so LORD pls guide n lead me in that, AMEN.

sorry,but~~

I love you~~

Seremban-KL-Seremban trip~

hmmmm,had tis trip wif yikmun~~

went over to seremban to find my little owner~~haha~~

had a great time over there~~

THX ALOT YA,my little owner,dear MICHELLE GOH~~

otw to seremban~

we reach there in d afternoon,had our lunch n bac to her hse~

d 1st thg tat came to my mind was "woah,tis hse is huge n nice,I super duper love d design of d hse"

den we bathed n hav some rest,d two of u was sleeping deadly(too tired)~LOL

den Michelle waked us up,n it's was dinner time,so we went n join a party of her neighbour's~

balloons~~

<3 d purple balloons n d deco of d staircase~

after tat,her father drove us to JUSCO,

n tis jusco is really bigger den our jusco in ipoh~~

den she went to join her aunt,n we(me n yikmun) walk around~

den I accidentally saw tis pooh lollipop~~haha

on d 2nd day,we went down to subang jaya~~

den we went to sunway piramid~~

yikmun meet up wif her frenz so she din join us(me,michelle n nicholas)~~

n of cz we end up wif window shopping n camwhor-ING~~

ooh ya,agn POOH BEAR~

den after tat we had Christmas dinner at michelle's Aunt's house~~

on d 3rd day,we went to KLCC~~

n of cz it's more on window shopping n camwhoring~~

book store~~spot me???

d nex day we went bac to seremban~~

den had over dinner n den went to jusco for movie,We bought a ZOO~~

it was super duper cold in d cinema~~i wore long sleeve n jeans n yet imma shivering in d cinema~~

n at d end of d movie,my finernails turned purplish~~

movie time~~

it was d last day,n I really feel lik dun wanna go bac~~seriouslly~~

we had our brunch n den went to a park nearby~~

seriouslly,d park was really nice~~

KAY,I LOVE THIS PHOTO TO THE MAX~~NICE~~

den off we go,bac to IPOH~~

bye bye seremban,n michelle say tat next time when i play a visit to her hse,she wanna bring me to melaka~~haha~~no bad~~

once agn, i wanna thx Michelle n her family member for tis nice trip~~
love you my little owner~~MUACKSSSS~~

I went for tripSSsss.....gng around here n there....working.....playing n fooling around...so tat i wil be tired n x time for me to think of all those nonsense,i wn go n thnk abt u n suffer all d way~~but to the d truth,I MISS YOU,I REALLY DO MISS YOU~

working time~

get to noe new frenz n i can rmb them~
haha~

Manager Changed~

Khaiten Changed~Kitchen Changed~SC changed~

Meet good ppl who helped me out,

Kak Farah,Kak Wani,Kak Ida,Kak Ayu,n Andy Thomas~LOL

Super duper tired,kinda stupid huh???!!!shldn't get myself tired,n i shld get more rest n yet i stil went for it~

of cz some reasons,

1st,get myself super busy so i wun think of u...

2nd,get some salary on my own n send them to my kids....>.<

3rd,get slim down(d MOST STUPID REASON)

LOL~~~

but den d 1st reason wasn;t a good one cz this place was a place where most couples wil go....T.T

n of cz think of u lor~~~EVen damn missing u~~~ISHHHHHH~~~
x b'guna~~

Im X okay....T.T

Saying n acting that "imma okay" when u r not okay is somethg very very torturing....
As I was like acting all the way, througout tis few months...
keeping everythg,every single problem,feeling inside of me is d best way....
dun ask me y,cz i just dunno y....


I thought that i would be okay....acting at the way....n crying bhind silently...
but den til tat day....
d same thg happen in one day....


During Pengajian Melayu class,lecturer asked me....
"ade boyfren tak?"....
"tak ade"
"tipu ni..."
"encik memang tak ade...x tipu..."
my heart starts to sore....


n at d same night,i was like crapping wif zhao shun,somethg abt a tinny little lantern,
den....
d same thg....
"ask ur bf for one"
"no bf..."
"huh????really....tipu..."
n i just go "...."
sit there quietly facing my lappie....n tears come rolling down my cheek no matter how hard i try....






and tis is somethg i wrote in chinese......


光源


        “他走了，一切都变得很黯淡。”


        一个男人是一个光源，他走了，就连光也带走了。


        要在坐牢与异乡漂泊之间选择其一，无可奈何，也只好选择在异乡漂泊。
然而，一个光源，离得愈远便愈弱，本来是一个发亮的灯泡，最后，已变成一根火光微弱的火柴。火不够热，灯不够亮，会冷坏一个女人。


         有一次，有个女生，她一个人住，每天晚上都要亮起全屋的灯才能入睡。不知道为什么，一个晚上，全屋的灯泡都坏了，漆黑一片，她就哭了一整个晚上，觉得很寂寞。第二天，朋友帮她换上了新的灯泡，她才有安全感。




          男人就是夜里的一盏灯，没有他，一切都会变得黯淡。他的存在，照亮了生活里每一个细节，有光就有热。


          男人就是幽暗的角落里的光源，使你勇敢地向前走。


          男人就是夜海上的一盏灯，使你知道茫茫大海，有一个尽头。

           
              一段爱情，当它结束了，一个男人的离开，就好像舞台剧突然关灯换景，令人惆怅。所有的伤心、痛苦，呈现出来的，是一片黯淡，欲语无言。

               我的光源啊，你看到了吗？？？你有在看吗？？？我真的需要你，难道你不懂吗？？？想你了...一切都还好吗？？？




                       




  

心情

ooh my.....

pain killer????
again????
argh....

i dun wanna be addicted to it....

n one thg....

due to d medicine....

n my skin's kinda sensitive....

so....there it goes....

pretty right....HAHA....

T.T....I wan my baby skin back...

busy busy busy.....

argh........

omo...omo....

assignments........

presentations........

argh..........

gotta go for that boring n useless(tis is wat i feel lar...cz we just go there n SWING n jalur gemilang...x even choir o block marching) parade in putrajya...

n den it's from d 6th/5th til 16th of Sept....

yiyer.....pesta tanglung arrrrrrrr.....

(put it aside 1st...)

den concert.....

i used to love it....

cz....IT'S MUsIc....

but den just dunno y...

argh......

i dun feel like continue...

gor，你的reply很冷...

可以不要这样吗？？？

jie,看到你的他了...

也看见你们有多SWEET了...

希望你们一直这样SWEET下去...

祝福你们...

说真的，我真的越来越不对劲了...

对不起，我选择了沉默...

也选择了等待...

因为，病倒了会累...

累了就不想讲话...

不想移动...

所以，不是我要EMO啦...

只是不想出声了...

做不了任何事...

所以惟有等待...

等待奇迹出现...

看着身边的朋友，吵吵闹闹，分分合合，

最终都还是好结局的(还是在回一起）...

好希望我们也可以....

但...

没关系....等待是我最终的选择....

so,dear....How are you???

how's d preparations for Uni???

how's ya trip???

good luck n all the best in ya future undertakings...

take care...miss you....love you...

how i wish u were here....

omo.....omo....='(

ooh gosh...

weyh...........

imma acting abnormal agn....

imma eating alots of thgs....

alots of food are gng into my tummy....

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT...

weyh....

tis is not amanda lar...

she is abnormal ady..

somethg went wrong....

ooh o.....

ARGH........>.....................<

ARGH....................

ARGH...........

ARGH.....

oops....exactly forget abt my medicine....

adoi....

kay...had my medicine....

den continue wif my bookmark design for tml...(actually is today...)

as we r gng out for tis kajian lapangan for KS assignments...

1st time doing field work...hmmm....how wil it be...

as i noe....

it's vry tired...
hope tat tml wil be a good day...

kay...

assignments...

presentations...

practices for....

--> band...orkestra...

             -->dancing...pesta tanglung...

i miss you...

i miss you...

I MISS YOU....

does anyone understands me????

does anyone noe how i feel right now???

does anyone noe how suffer n lost im???

does anyone cares???

ARGH... 

oh dear....

oh my....

i lost every info of u.....

n tat doesn't feel good...

really doesn't feel good...

how r u recently????

everythg okay???

do u back pain???

do u get enuf slip???

how ur uni thg???

how abt d courses???

ur scholarship thg???

which uni u r entering???

where is it located???

i miss those sweet memories we had...

i miss ur hair..

i miss ur voice...it's so safe...

i miss d way u kiss me goodnight n a morning kiss evry morning b4 i go for school...

i miss d way u sing me a lullably n send me off to bed...

i miss d time when u look after me in NS whenever im sick... 

i miss every single part of you...

i miss every single moment we had...

I MISS YOU BADLY....

sorry....

life really sucks since d day we break....argh....

 whoever noe who he is...

whose this person i mention...

whose d one i wanna ask n talks to...

pls...

can you pls....

pls tell me...

so tat i wun be so worried...

how much is there,left for me???

i  owez wonder...

do u miss me???

wil u rmb  me when im gone...

(perhaps these are silly questions...cz u wun ever answer me...)

1341...our number...    

laogong....

nizainali???

woxiangnile....

zhendexiangnile...

zenmeban???

wowanwanquanquanshiqulenidexiaoxi...

henxingku....

buhaoshou...

huilai...

huidaowoshenbian...

haobuhao???

shishihoushuijiaole...

danyuanniyongyoumeihaodeyitian...