Le Double Valentine's Day

Well, is another long lost post....xD....
again valentine's day fall on 14/2/2014, and what make it special was that it was a double Valentine's day in which both the Western Valentine's Day and Chinese Valentine's Day coincidentally fall on the same day! 19 years per incidence~
So, I start off the day with le mushroom over to the Tun Razak Library and then we walk all the way to Utc and Parade...den night time we spend our day being Lightbulb of this couple...xD.....hahah....
so, start of with dinner in OldTown Kopitiam.....as we plan to have our dinner somewhere nearby Guan Yin Tong as we are heading there after dinner as our dear mushroom wanna join the mandarin orange tossing event....
some being lightbulbs' photo....xD



and then out of my surprise tat coconut muncul out of sudden.....with a bouquet of roses....hahhaha.....and I was like huh????what is this.....(nah, juz cant stop laughing, as i never ever though that he wounld appear with roses, as he is someone who dont even plan things...)
so, we had our dinner togather, den heading to Guanying Dong~~~so, as usual, the place was super crowded...

the girls wanna ignite the lily candle......so, I join them as well...(nah, juz for fun...)

 so, our mushroom jie jie's turn....

 den, ai Ling's turn~~

 and finally my Turn...hahahha

 Mushroom jie jie ask me to hlp her capture...hahaha......how to write w/o the ink leh???!!!! hmmm...

and on my way back home, we knocked into 3 lecturers.....ahhaha....xD 

Well......tats alll for my Double valentine's day.....:)

21.02.2012

Heyh,dear~
it's ur birthday~

おたんじょび　おめでと～

생일축하합니다~

Joyeux anniversaire~

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag~

ifeliz cumpleanos~

happy birthday~

selamat hari lahir~

i cnt celebrate wif u anymore~

we are x longer together~x even frenz??!!

sorry for everythg bac in time~

hmmmm,wish you have an memorable 20th birthday wif ur frenz~

dreams to come true~

healthy,happy forever~

all d best in ur studies in Uni~

take care~

GBU~

I just miss you~

I used to learn n cooked this for u~~
its ur favourite~~

but now,its no longer needed~~

IMY~~

心情

ooh my.....

pain killer????
again????
argh....

i dun wanna be addicted to it....

n one thg....

due to d medicine....

n my skin's kinda sensitive....

so....there it goes....

pretty right....HAHA....

T.T....I wan my baby skin back...

busy busy busy.....

argh........

omo...omo....

assignments........

presentations........

argh..........

gotta go for that boring n useless(tis is wat i feel lar...cz we just go there n SWING n jalur gemilang...x even choir o block marching) parade in putrajya...

n den it's from d 6th/5th til 16th of Sept....

yiyer.....pesta tanglung arrrrrrrr.....

(put it aside 1st...)

den concert.....

i used to love it....

cz....IT'S MUsIc....

but den just dunno y...

argh......

i dun feel like continue...

gor，你的reply很冷...

可以不要这样吗？？？

jie,看到你的他了...

也看见你们有多SWEET了...

希望你们一直这样SWEET下去...

祝福你们...

说真的，我真的越来越不对劲了...

对不起，我选择了沉默...

也选择了等待...

因为，病倒了会累...

累了就不想讲话...

不想移动...

所以，不是我要EMO啦...

只是不想出声了...

做不了任何事...

所以惟有等待...

等待奇迹出现...

看着身边的朋友，吵吵闹闹，分分合合，

最终都还是好结局的(还是在回一起）...

好希望我们也可以....

但...

没关系....等待是我最终的选择....

so,dear....How are you???

how's d preparations for Uni???

how's ya trip???

good luck n all the best in ya future undertakings...

take care...miss you....love you...

how i wish u were here....

omo.....omo....='(

end of july

It's the end of July.......

and I just wanna Cry....

imma really really tired...

ooh LORD....please......

answer my prayers........

y???

y i wanna cry.....

cz i din send d thgs yet....

i dun hav d time.....

n 

u noe wat im scared off...

d time is limited....

shorter n shorter....

time flies....

it really does....

wait....

anyone free????

can help wif shooting????

please????

tml puasa wil be starting....

n perhaps I should ikut too...

i dun wanna eat.....

i dun feel lik having anythg....

i just wanna cry....

there's no one who listens to me lik you do...

there's no one who stands right bside me whenever i fall....

i just hate myself....

i just dunno how to continue....

i juat wanna giv up in everythg....

there's no mood for me to study....

nor assigments....

nor presentations....

not even d dances,therapies,mettings.....

n everyone is ignoring me.....

T.T

i really do hate myself for tat.....

if not....

during sem break....

we can go on a vacation togather again....

n we can meet each other every single day as u r having ur holid...

having chocho n hugs when imma down....

taking care of me cz imma sick...

i can hav d sweet from u after every medicine i hav,cz thy r bitter...

ARGH.....
GERAM....

memang 

BENCI 

KAT 

AMANDA CHEAH

BABE...

TIS IS WAT IM GNG TO SAY.....

BABE...

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE
MY LOVE FOR YOU

Back....

d result for Uni was finally out....

i prayed tat u got d UNI n d CourSe u wan....

tat's all i can do for now....

i wanna share ur hapiness n sadness wif u...

how i wish for tat....

which UNI u get????

everythg okay???

how abt d course????

I miss you....

my dear frenz....thx for tis two days...

thx alot...

i really do appreciate it....

altot somehow i got sick n d pain at night....

i mean act it was mightnight....

n everyone is asleep...

n i hope tat i din kacau d three of u....ai ling,eileen n mee mee...^^

n one more i wanna say thx tat i got chance agn to drink somethg im waiting for...

i mean im craving for a long time...but den it's kinda waste tat im x drunk...

thx those guys who's hlping me wif d up n down just for photos....

thx for d choco....

thx for caring....

thx for d photos....

thx for makin me laugh...

n sorry when i dun talk/laugh/smile...

cz imma in pain...

but i dun wan to spoilt d mood...

n i go quiet n suffer from d pain...

wil i hav another chance???

wil i???

time's running up....

days go by days....

life go shorter by shorter...

im tired yet scared....

n tat's y i nid u....

cun u see it....

even frenz cun make me feel secure...

only u my dear....

dun u und????

im serious....n i din fool nor cheat in our relationship....

on d way bac....n i saw d sighboard...there's Sungai Siput....

n my heart sank....

my tears drops....

songs of ryan liew is just replaying in my mind...

those memories...

we had been through every difficult circumstance...

n y????

we just gotta hold on togather....

go through it...

Y?????

y does tis stupid me did somethg tats so annoying....

argh....

pls....dear.....

sorry.....pls babe pls come bac to me....

I wish....

i wish....

i wish tat u r right bside me now...

i wish to meet you now...

11/07

对不起...

知道你要考STPM了...

加油...

sorry...

keep pretending tat im okay is d best way to protect myself...

i just gotta keep pretending...

somehow...i just can pretend...

all i can do is just wait...

sorry...

argh...

SICK...

again???

ARGH...

useless...

amanda,sick is all u hav???

tats wat im used to it...

chest pain again..

tis time it was even worse den d 3rd time...

n...

i din tell anyone...

as i dun wan to seek for emphaty from others...

speaking for today's eng lesson...

mood swing b4 it...

after i saw wat Wylie sent to me...

y???

am I tat useless...

am I tat priceless???

really x chance at all????

y???

pls...

pls LORD...

just a chance wil do...

pls...

T.T

mind went blank...

x idea nor points at all...

how m I gng to sit for my exam???

wat if i cun get a band 6 for it???

wat shld i tell DAddy???

english teacher's daughter...

formally a banana cun get band 6...

how shameful...

argh.....

NO....

STOP...

presentations starts...

practice starts...

wish me luck for every single presentation...

LOrd...I pray tat i can do well in every single presentation o performance...

sofball tml...

game???

home run???

i used to miss sofbal...

cun wait to ply games...

but sorry...

im tired n sick...

x mood for tml's game...

can i ponteng???

fish...cl juniors...

wen jing...n all band juniors...

another 3 weeks...

u guys wil be in cheras for competition...

gambateh des...

take care of each other ya...

drink more water n rest more...

fully support from ur beloved ex-senior...

AMC BAND...go...go...go...ush...

angeline...

good luck n all d best...

i noe tat ur scared...

so...

i pray tat u wun get it...

but somehow deeply in my heart...

i hope n wish tat u wil get it...

cz u wil learn alot of thgs from it...

NS...it's a sweet memory for me...

it d best thg i had in my life...

i meet my dear in NS...

once we were out from NS...

distances...

faith...

problems...

quarrels...

I miss you...

I nid you...

I LOVE YOU, RYAN LIEW...

irregular weathers...

drink more water...

rest more...

take care...

pls dun fall asick...

I love you dear...

T.T

tossing and turning in bed last night....

thinking of all the memories we had together...

every night...

i lie down in bed...

i'll wet my pillow...

evry night...

o perhaps...

evry single day...

i wish for msgs o calls frm u...

but it dont seems that its coming...

its hurtful...

to know tat i wun b getting wat i wish for...

i'm scared to disturb u...

i'm scared of loosing u...

but wat i'm most scared of is...

we wun b able to be bac togather lik wat once we used to be...

Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

T.T

d world goes all around in d other way....

how am i gng to pass every single day w/o him....

my heart shattered into pieces...

i'm lost wif x directions...

x hand leading my path ahead...

bcz u left me all alone...

i forget on how to live on my own...

skies r no longer blue...

stars r no longer bright...

rainbows r no longer colourful as thy usually do...

i've been crying since d day u left me...

as i dunno how to face d fact tat i gotta be alone...

all alone in tis dark n scary world...

ur presence used to be my torch...

lighting brightly killing d darkness of fear...

u held my hand n been through evry obstacles tat lies in my path...

u r d strength for me to move on...

but den...

when d day u leave me...

i got to face d world alone...

x one's there for me to rely on...

when i'm down...

x one's there for me n to lend me a shoulder as comfortable as urs...

x one will kissed me lik d way u used to...

i miss evry single moment tat we spend togather...

and...

i felt vry awful at tis vry moment...

cz i'm stil missing n loving u for who u r...

tears had been shed...

head is spinning...

n as d sickness is torturing...

if tis is wat it is...

let it be...

i beg mercy from God...

to help me get through tis devastating moment...

bcz these feeling makes me weak...

it really kills me...

if ever tat you wants it bac...

i wil agree w/o hesitating...

but d most probably is tat u wun...

den...

i wil stil wait...

i wil wait for u x matter wat...

til d day i left d world...

i wil not give up hope...

u noe i dun give up love so easily...

especially those i loved...

i have x regret for loving u tat muc...

my heart wil owez be wif u...

however...

n of cz...

i wish badly tat we could be togather lik we used to be...

i really do pray for it...

n...

somehow...

some words for u...

if u re getting sick...

drink more water...

hav more vege n fruits...

if u re sad...

dun be...

cz i wil be sad too...

if u re facing wif obstacles...

dun be scared...

cz u re owez d strongest one who can beat all these obstacles tat lies in ur path...

if u re angry...

try to control ur temper more...

n i noe u can do it...

til then...

u re owez d one i love...

hope for d best for u...

pretending tat im okay now...

tats d one n only way to protect myself...

through it may b tired n suffer...

but wat can i do???

when u r leaving,cun u see how muc i nid u???

dun u noe how muc i nid u right now...

whn u r reading tis post...

imma in my dreamlands...

cz i set it to d auto posting...

hmmm...cz who noes one day i might leave tis bac in tis world...

n i hope tat d stories wun stops...

tired

TIRED....

ya....im really tired...

bringing a tiring n lifeless soul n body to class every single day...

my eyes r lik gold fish eyes...

red....round...n as big as fishball...haha...

rudolph's nose is wif me now...

n it's right on my face....

singing lik no one else....

crying lik ghost...

shouting lik hell....

i just tried to express everythg out....

sorry angeline, i noe im crazy...

n thx for belenja me d bread n d meal at salim...

n one more been considerate for ur jie jie d situation...

friday wif a basketbal play....

saturday wif a 1Sukan 1Murid...

den AMc for juniors...

sunday wif Church...

n choir concert...

london bridge is falling down...

n so do I...

felt down n knock my head...

how many times wil I fall???...

looks lik "big sweet potato"...

but cun hlp it...

twinkle twinkle little star...

how I wonder watcha doing in ma head...

seeing d world go round n round...

like imma hamster in it's wheel...

cun reads d words as thy go up n down...

one,two,three,four,five...

once I had a sweet relationship...

six,seven,eight,nine,ten...

den he left me all alone...

why did he left u alone?

bcz I did some mistakes...

which mistakes did u did?

there's too muc n i cun even count...

Hearty Dearly sat on a wall....

Hearty Dearly had a great fall...

all of amanda's frenz, n all of amanda's family...

couldn;t put hearty dearly togather again!

o pls....

cun u see it....

she's really getting worse....

looking pale huh????....

Star light Star bright...

d 1st star i see tonight...

i wish i may, i wish i might...

hav d wish i wish tonight...