Lonely Depression

This torment depression is taking over my life
At the rate things are going,I'll never have a life
For I am always feeling sad and blue
And I just don't know what to do

If I am not feeling sad
I'm constantly mad
Mad at what I'm not sure
I just wish I had the cure

A cure to make all of this go away
So the sun could shine another day
I wish I could feel the sun beaming down
But I feel like I'm stuck in the cold hard ground

I wish I knew what caused this to happen to me
I remember the days of being happy and carefree
Those days are nowhere to be found
Trust me,I've been looking around

I feel like crying all day long
Like I'm constantly doing wrong
What did I do to deserve this heartfelt pain?
It's always loss and never gain

I see myself falling more and more every day
Emotions being pulled,every single way
When did this started?And when will it end?
Because all I want to do is mend

I want to be the old me
Not this mess you see
I want to be giggly,cute,and fun
I want to jump,run,and skip in the sun

I want to go places and be a good friend
I don't want this to be the end
Lord,please just send me a sign
So that I know everything will be fine